crush

let's talk about crush.

I see ya blowin' me a kiss
It doesn't take a scientist
To understand what's going on baby
If you see something in my eye
Let's not over analyze
Don't go too deep with it baby

So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I'll do
I'll play loose
Run like we have a day with destiny

It's just a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la, Sha-la-la-la

i love this song, by jennifer paige.
it feels so good to have a crush on somebody with or without him knowing it.
you know that kind of feeling, when you see him you feel there's a butterfly in your stomach.
when he look at you or staring at you and smile playfully, you feel so crushed till wanna faint.
it doesn't matter if he don't feel the same way you do, because doesn't mean when you like somebody, he's obligated to like you back. its our nature.
but if he has the 'thing' for you like you do, then bonus la kan.
as far as i know, the moment of 'crush' on somebody is really something special to me.it helps me glow.

my first crush when i was ten. (standard four dah gatal,yelah skolah convent kenala gatal2)
jordan knight from NKOTB.

berbeza kan time muda2 dgn time skg? why does he has to be turned out so good?
mcm mane boleh crushed dgn dia ni? i've always love nkotb but i didnt have a particular person to crush on yet. then, one night, i dreamt of jordan. esoknye bgn, terus jatuh cinta, obsessed sume lah. tp mmg makan hati berulam jantung la crush dgn artis. sbb mestila takan dapat kn? (lain la kalo aku ni maria ozawa)

time sekolah menengah selepas men dumped si jordan ni, terpaut la pulak dgn ronan keating frm boyz to men. eh itu nigga. from boyzone. (dulu kan rancak dgn boyband2 nih)
siap satu skolah panggil keating.hehehe. (bangge) kalo kt buku text sume nama printed pakai last name keating. sampai kan dorg ingt tu mmg my real name. come on lah..takan lah kan...
mmg amat menggilai ronan sampai tgk videotape concert tour dorg sampai nanges2 lah. (sdgkan depan tv kt umah je kan.bukannye gigs)
mmg pelik gak la..tp tulah..berckp psl crush mmg never ending story..

and, do i have a crush now?
(biarlah ia menjadi rahsia between me and jennifer paige.heh)

                                              

start from scratch

refresh! (tetibe je kan?)

i know its been a while since 4 days ago.hah! (mcm la lame sgt kan?) rase awkward pulak nk membelog.
thanks to lish yg telah insisted me utk kembali menulis. (walaupun hasil tulisan yg amat corot tp ok ape, ade jugak bab2 yg x corot, cthnye bermain....card, ok. CARD!

been out and about with the gang. do things like a norm teenagers do. ( wth?)
being inspired by lish's blog dan hasil didikan beliau, i decided to look for malay meat. or in a norm word lelaki melayu.
don't get me wrong, it's not that i'm looking forward to buy the meat for myself or something, its just for this blog.so that page ini dpt dipenuhi dgn pics yg membuatkan kita para gadis untuk lebih semangat bekerja dan meneruskan hidup seharian.ok, i know that ade jugak yg berpendapat "hellow! like we need them so bad and we cant live without them!duh!"..ok2 chill. after all, its just the pics. do no harm at all. come onnnn.lets turn on.

aaron aziz hanyalah sbg pencuci mulut because he's married.
and the rest, mestilah main course!

p/s: ini baru warm up..

it hurts

its killing me inside.like i could never imagined.

H.E.L.P.  M.E.

in a relationshit

huuaaawwrrgggghhhhhh (menguap)
(cepat2 tutup mulut sbb ade lalat lalu)


owait..where were we?
gosh! been busy like najis! (shit)

most of the time, feel like punching my bosses.

whats with the relationshit, anyway?
i've heard a lot of divorce's cases lately.
the latest one, sein (ruffedge) and nana (ruffles). pity his wife but lucky me.heh (mcm ler ade chance kan?)

i've heard on the radio last week, that particular caller told the dj about her loving couple's neighbor. both of them are 70++.
pelik jugak sebab still romantic gile. jalan siap pegang tgn. rupe2 nye they just got married 3 weeks ago.haha.
see?
ade ke long lasting love? or eternal love? fuck it.
(i mean... between human nowadays la)

okeh.nak sambung kerja.

see you when you're 40

hey lovelies!

heh.please don't give up on me yet.
i'm just being too damn #$@%&**#@ busy for these freaking whole two weeks.
i will be back soon.see you when you are 40.
xoxo.gossip girls.

doyoulikewhatyousee?

                                errr? bukan yang nih!

                                    here!here!
                        macarons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 it melts in your mouth with an innocent + sweet + naughty + cruel intentions to your tongue and throat. i'm not a major in anything to elaborate more on the taste, but i'm simply loving it! yeah! thanks to natalie's gourmet studio,dutamas.

                                  the rockband.(voc:lish,guitarist:ikhwan,dancer:amid,drummer:panjang)

              last but not least, my officemate.woi! bgnlah wat tender yuk!

salivating

last nite i had dinner with bella luna and dino (nama samaran).

dino : cube teka i dah kawen ke belum? (secara tiba2.mungkin die rase x selamat dgn kitorang)
me : let me guess. dah cerai! (laju dan konfiden sebab dino ni muda lg.gaya pun muda2 jer.so sajela ckp yg sebaliknye)(muka dino berubah.pucat2 sket)
dino : dah kawen la. br 5 bulan. (tanpa melengahkan masa terus tunjuk pic kawen kt i-phone 4 die tu)
me : dah kawen?!! gosh.nampak budak2 je.
(muka dino berubah lg.kecik hati kot)
dino : ni my wife.org brunei sabah.mixed.eurasian (laju je die cite dgn penuh bangga..)
(die tunjuk kt bella luna. then he showed me the pics.kitorg senyap je la.xtaula kalo si dino ni harapkan kitorang puji wife die cantik ke ape..sbb eurasian la katakan..kitorg bukan ape..sbb muka stok2 ramlah ram ni bukan la kena kt mata kitorang.so kitorg senyap je la.nak ckp ape kan? pastu muka dino frust lg. maybe x dptkan pujian yg die harapkan)
pastu sambung borak2 sambil mkn. ade jugak dino ni duk cite psl wife dia ni keja kt putrajaya. dgn gomen.mcm bangga2 sket. i heard him clearly la.tak sangka lak si bella luna ni agak sound trouble.ataupun si bella luna ni mmg x sangka yg wife dino a.k.a ramlah ram's twin ni keja gomen kot.
dino : i nak cari kain la.kt mane jual murah ek?
bella luna : eh tanyela your wife. kan die keje kt metrojaya!
(kali ni.mmg tersembul makananku.gelak terkekek kekek.jahat kan)
(dino tercengang! kali ni muka die bukan setakat kecik hati. tp mcm nak nanges!)
me : bella, putrajaya ok.putrajaya.
bella luna : eh dino sorry. salah dgr.igtkan metrojaya.
(melihat kpd wajah dino, kitorang tahu die redha)


so, this is what i bought last night.

                              nice huh.so therapeutic.ermmmmm.aahhhhh

                            mangsa kejadian. dino dan bella luna.

ok,mari sambung kerja!

obsessive-compulsive disorder

alright. let's cut it short.
medical term: obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD)
my term: tabiat buat benda ulang2

i had this conversation on the OCD issues with my boss last 3 weeks. she told me about her brother-in-law who suffers OCD. i'm quite interested on this issue, besides my obsession on MPD (multiple personality disorder) and not to forget eating disorder.heh. and last two weeks i told lish about these. we discussed (with serious face) about it a bit. (see? we could still talk things without include the kinky stuff,yea)
and to those whom started to find these boring, let me tell you that there is OCD in every one of us. what makes us different is only the limit of the repetition that we do.
correct me if i'm wrong, but that's my point of view.
people with OCD have persistent, upsetting thoughts (obsession) and use rituals (compulsions) to control the anxiety these thoughts produce. most of the time, the rituals end up controlling them.

for example, if people are obsessed with germs or dirt, they may develop a compulsion to wash their hands over and over again.

if they develop an obsession with intruders, they may lock and relock their doors many times before going to bed. (my case)

a need to repeatedly check things, touch things or count things.

my mom normally has this rituals, checking to see if the stove is off several times before leaving the house.
whenever i went out with sarah, she frequently asked me, "eh,aku lock tak keta td?"
then,she went to recheck and relock.
in this case, lish is not included because she doesn't care about it.tak lock pun takpe kan?sbb itu bukan keta,tp almari.hehe

ok,i admit that we do have the symptoms but not in high risk. because people with OCD perform their rituals even though doing so interferes with daily life and they find the repetition distressing.
just imagine, he bathes 100 times daily, he locks the door 200 times at a time and he combs his hair repeatedly for 250 times. (tu baru rambut kt kepala)
of course that kind of behavior will affect his daily life.
it will slow him down. and this kind of guy really exists.

if OCD becomes severe, it can keep a person from working or carrying out normal responsibilities at home.apatah lg di luar rumah kan?

so people, listen up. try not to be doing things repeatedly.
even for sex (married), satu malam 4-5 rounds cukup ah. takyahla sampai 56 kali.

chiao

twilight zone

Cassandra was walking her dog down the road of the neighborhood. She senses something fishy about her new neighbors. The people around here don’t come out so often. Only a little of them would get out of their house to do some groceries. Besides than that, they will just keep themselves busy inside their house. Not that she cares, but being the only newcomer at this town, she expected something more friendly and welcoming from them. Not more than that.

At 7.p.m, she went home to prepare dinner.

While preparing the meatball spaghetti herself, there was a knock on the door.

She opened the door.

No one there.

‘Ahhh...maybe the kids around here are playing fool to their new neighbors like me’ she thought to herself.

On the next morning, she woke up earlier to jog with her dog. She poured herself a cup of café latte.

After jog, on her way home, she passed by the fish market to buy something for dinner because she called her sister, Meredith to come over for dinner besides accompanying her tonight.

She found most of the fishes were rotten and hard to find the fresh one.

She felt a bit emotional about it and went to ask one of the fishmongers there.

Cassandra: Why do you still sell those rotten fishes? It is not nice, you know.

Fishmonger: Because you are rotten enough. Hahahaha! (His smug laughter was followed by the other guys there)

Cassandra’s face turned red and started to walk away.

She went home with the feeling of disgust and angriness.

That night, she just cooked a simple dish for dinner.

A chicken salad and mashed potatoes. With the red wine.

She knows it. Meredith would love the wine the most.

Later that evening, her sister came.

Cassandra was so happy to see her sister came and hug her sister gleefully.

She didn’t even bother to look at her sister’s expression.

Meredith: Thank God you are still alive!

Cassandra: Ha!ha! Nice try. But I don’t bother to take that jokes seriously, sister.

Meredith: No, I mean it, Cassie. How the hell in the world you could live here, by the way?

(Meredith started to take her seat on the sofa)

Cassandra: Yeah, I know they are all weird and stuff. These neighborhoods are totally…

Meredith: These neighborhoods? Is there any?

Cassandra: What do you mean?

Meredith: There are no such things, Cassie. You are living in the middle of a jungle. I came all the way here with the forest’s Rangers. Without them, I’d lost. Plus, this place’s so damn scary, you know, like…ghosts are everywhere. Let’s get out of here.

(Cassandra didn’t blink an eye. Her face turned white.)

foodwhore again!

bliss bliss bliss.
sometimes,people hates it, when you do a lot of talking. that is why i prefer to use my mouth for something good and beneficial at. haip! please dont think of any kinky stuff, eh.blog ni blog bersih.please behave!

                                 nampak x sosej yg 'bersembunyi' di balik ayam maryland tu? maybe die segan
                                 dgn tumbesaran rakan die yg lg satu ni.(jauh lebih gah)

 

*credits to mama chops papa grill, pizza hut, jombali, and little wok.                              

the best vacation i've ever had (season finale)

eh.eh.ade lg?

done! phew...